The words I can't find on my own...

I'm not even going to attempt to write today. Instead I 've decided to let my playlist speak for me.

I guess you got what you wanted, but what about me.

Taylor Swift “A Perfectly Good Heart”

“Maybe I should've seen the signs,
should've read the writing on the wall.
And realized by the distance in your eyes
that I would be the one to fall.
No matter what you say,
I still can't believe
That you would walk away.”


Sister Hazel “Best I’ll Ever Be”

“So I wait and I wait
And I run old scenes through my tired head
Of the days we laid by the school and said forever
Was that the best I'll ever be.”


Carrie Underwood “So Small”

“What you've been out there searching for forever,
Is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters, after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small.”


Mat Kearney “Crashing Down”

“What am I doing here
If you're not with me?
What have I got to live for,
if it's just my own dream
Take it back to the beginning,
back to the start
When gravity's pulling,
you're still holding my heart
You come crashing down.”


Goo Goo Dolls “Feel the Silence“

“And you remain
A promise unfulfilled
I ask you for more
But you push me away
And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside
Everything means more now than
Words could explain.”


Citizen Cope “Hurricane Waters”

“I will carry you through the hurricane waters
And I'll remember you in the blue skies
Until we meet again
Until it's like it was
Until the answers start raining down
Until the skies open up until the trumpet starts
Until the city and the county ain't divided
Until the spirit and the mind ain't fighting
Until the scenes of tomorrow and today finally play.”


Michelle Branch “Goodbye to You”

“I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to…”


The Wreckers “Leave the Pieces”

“You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair you know
To just keep me hangin' 'round
You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't want to see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown
And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go.”


Something Coporate “I Won’t Make You”

“I'm under attack again my dear
I'm in the way
Got no resolutions,
no clever anecdotes to say
And still if i yell at the top of my lungs,
will it be the same I'd fly you a flag,
I'd bury this pen into my veins

I wanna feel through you tonight,
but I wont make you,
No, I wont make you.”


The Fray “All at Once”

“Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it's all you're running from,
Perfection will not come.”


Damien Rice “Lonelily”

“I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I was lonelily looking for someone to hold
In a way I lost all I believed in
And I never found myself so low
And you let me down
You could've called if you'd needed
But you lonelily got yourself locked in instead
And you let me down
It's one thing being cheated
But you took him all the way through your bed.”


Something Corporate “Hurricane (Weather Patterns)”

“So, Don't Say "These currents are still killing me"
and you can't explain
how the wind went and pulled you into your hurricane.
Stand up don't make a sound, your ears might bleed.
There are sweet fluorescent enemies
that live inside of me.
The world moves faster than I knew,
not fast enough to not creep up on you
and the space we put between.
So pull me under your weather patterns,
your cold fronts and the rain don't matter,
because a sun burns what I needed.”


Seether featuring Amy Lee “Broken”

“The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away.”


Dave Matthews “Dreamgirl”

“You’re like my best friend
and after a good, good drunk
You and me wake up
and make love after a deep sleep
Where I was Dreamin’,
I was Dreamin’ of a Dreamgirl,
Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl

Caught by a wave
my back to the ocean
it knocks me off my feet and
just as I find my footing
here you come again.”


Damien Rice “Green Eyes”

“Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand
And I came here to talk
I hope you understand

That green eyes,
you’re the one that I wanted to find
And anyone who, tried to deny you
must be out of their mind
Cause I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter, since I met you
Honey you should know,
that I could never go on without you.”


Gavin DeGraw “Just Friends”

“I've had other options too
But all I want is you
Girl, your body fits me like a glove
And you showered me with words of love
While you were just friends
At least that's what you said
Now I know better from his fingers in your hair
I'll forgive you for what you've done
If you say that I'm the one.

It's not my style to lay it on the line
But you don't leave me with a choice this time.”


Mat Kearney “Breathe In Breathe Out”

“Hold on hold tight,
From out of your sight,
If everything keeps moving on,
moving on,
Hold on hold tight,
Make it through another night,
& everyday there comes a song with the dawn,
We push and pull and I fall down sometimes,
I'm not letting go,
You hold the other line.”


David Gray “Best I Ever Had”

“And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed awayInto a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had.”


Blake Shelton “Austin”

“If you're callin' 'bout my heart
It's still yours
I should've listened to it a little more
Then it wouldn't have taken me so long
to know where I belong

And by the way, boy,
this is no machine you're talkin' to
Can't you tell, this is Austin,
and I still love youI still love you.”


Goo Goo Dolls “Before It’s Too Late”

“I wondered through fiction
to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives.”


Dixie Chicks “Without You”

“Well I never thought I'd be
Lying here without you by my side
It seems unreal to me that
The life you promised was a lie
You made it look so easy
Making love into memories
I guess you got what you wanted
But what about me cause

Without you I’m not okay
And without youI’ve lost my way
My hearts stuck
In second place ooh
Without you

Somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart
That I’m better off without you.”


Vertical Horizon “Barely Breathing”

“I know what you’re doing,
see it all to clear
I only taste the saline
when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going,
wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you
are heavier by far I believed in your confusion,
you were so completely torn
Well it must have been that yesterday
was the day that I was born

There’s not much to examine,
there’s nothing left to hide
You really can’t be serious
if you have to ask me why.”


Finley Quaye “Dice”

“I was crying over you
I am smiling, I think of you
Where your gardens have no walls
Breathe in the air if you care,
you compare, don't say farewell

Nothing can compare
To when you roll the dice
and swear your love's for me.”


The Fray “She Is”

“Do not get me wrong I cannot wait for you to come home
For now you're not here and I'm not there,
it's like we're on our own
To figure it out, consider how to find a place to stand
Instead of walking away and instead of nowhere to land

This is going to break me clean in two
This is going to bring me close to you

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

It's all up in the air and we stand still to see what comes back down
I don't know where it is, I don't know when, but I want you around
When it falls into place with you and I, we go from if to when
Your side and mine are both behind it's indication

This is going to bring me clarity
This'll take the heart right out of me.”


Snow Patrol “Open Your Eyes”

“Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time
Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere

I want so much to open your eyes
'Cause I need you to look into mine
Tell me that you'll open your eyes

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you.”



These songs give me the comfort of knowing I am not alone. Someone else has known the pain of a heart break, and lived to write music about it. For that, I am grateful.